The morning after my husband’s funeral, my mother suddenly asked, “how much did you get from the insurance? You’ll share some, right?” My sister laughed, “I think I’ll buy a new house!” I smiled and said, “then take this house. It’s too big anyway.” They were thrilled until my 5-year-old daughter whispered, “mommy… you’re kind of mean… hehe.”

The morning after my husband’s funeral, my mother suddenly asked, “how much did you get from the insurance? You’ll share some, right?” My sister laughed, “I think I’ll buy a new house!” I smiled and said, “then take this house. It’s too big anyway.” They were thrilled until my 5-year-old daughter whispered, “mommy… you’re kind of mean… hehe.”

The morning after my husband’s funeral, the house felt wrong—too quiet, too full of other people’s perfume, too heavy with sympathy flowers that already looked tired. I stood at the kitchen sink holding a mug of tea I hadn’t tasted once. My five-year-old daughter, Mia, sat at the table with her coloring book, drawing the same sun over and over like she could force daylight to stay.

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