zThree years ago, I stopped calling my son. It was the hardest decision of my life. For months beforehand, I had been the one pursuing—sending texts that sat unread, leaving voicemails that echoed into silence, begging for just five minutes to understand why he had shut me out. I replayed every moment of his childhood, searching for the mistake that had driven this wedge. I was unraveling, losing pieces of my dignity with every unanswered plea. I was showing him that my love could be ignored, dismissed, trampled without consequence.

Part 1 – The Silence I Chose

Three years ago, I stopped calling my son. It was the hardest decision of my life.

For months before that, I had been the one chasing him—texts that stayed unread, voicemails that went nowhere, birthday messages answered with nothing but a digital void. Each attempt scraped away a little more of my dignity. I told myself a mother’s love should be unconditional, but what I was doing wasn’t love anymore. It was begging. And I could feel him learning a lesson I never meant to teach: that my love could be ignored without consequence.

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